Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Teenage Angst Plays Cupid Part II

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Losing Jaymes


  1. Once again, extremely gripping and touching. Your imagery is unmatched. I am able to relate so amazingly well to your experiences by your incredible descriptions. I know this is difficult, but you have an amazing story to tell & you are touching many lives by doing this! Thank you! :)

  2. You've been through a lot, dear Lisa. There are a lot of Timmy's out there who, knowingly or not, leave deep scars within us. I can't comprehend how a person can belittle another like that; I'd never degrade somebody I'm with, even if they get on my nerves, as I'm always cautious not to hurt people -- which never prompted them to follow into my footsteps, mind you. :)

    It's comforting to blame some of our bad decisions on youth, I've found. Some people learn from their mistakes, while others learn from others' mistakes. I wish I were more of the latter, but I don't regret much anymore. We are who we grow to be thanks to our "experience".

    Wonder what has become of Timmy?

  3. @L.E. Thank you so much for your kind words.

    I have your book and am excited to read it!! I am saving it as my first good read of the summer (I do most of my reading on camping trips). I cannot wait to get started and will be sure to let you know what I think!

    @Wil, I have often wondered why Timmy acted the way he did. It crossed my mind in later years that he, too, had bipolar disorder (he was ever-manic - spending money - usually mine - but still, the sexual indiscretions, etc... and he was a super hyper guy). But I never saw him depressed and I'm not a doctor so it would be difficult for me to say with full knowledge of the disorder. He told me that his father abused him in a short conversation. Perhaps that was why he was the way he was with me. He wouldn't tell me details though. We visited his mom and dad once and that confused me. I don't understand how someone can suffer abuse and continue to surround themselves with their abuser!

    He likely had something going on. I definitely don't think he was a "bad person". I believe that people are inherently good - not that the worst we see on earth is forgivable, but that people stray from goodness for various reasons - we all have it in us to be good.

    I have wondered what has become of Timmy myself. I kept in contact with Jen and Missy for many years after he moved back to Florida. Missy actually moved up to Virginia for a while. I asked her about Timmy once. She told me that he often asked about me. The only thing I wondered at the time was if he was with anyone and if he was faithful to her. She said that he was. I think he had an office job. Which is laughable - the guy was SO not the corporate type with his mo hawk, tattoos, punk attitude :-P. But people change.

  4. WOW! what a moving story? I'm visiting from supermomplace, you left a comment on site today, so I was checking you out. I will definitely come back to read to rest of your memoir.

    I'm glad we found each other.
    Have a great day

  5. @supermomplace - I will comment back on your blog when I return from work (am on my way in now)! I just wanted to thank you for taking the time to check out my blog and read me. :-)

  6. Oh no, I forgot to subscribe to comments by email; hence why I didn't get back on here. :p Sorry!

    I am not surprised Timmy has, now, an office job. I guess many people grow up to be the complete opposite of what they used to be in their youth (provided that you leave them space and time). As for loyalty, allow me to remain skeptical. Not that Timmy wouldn't be able to not cheat; it's just that there's virtually no way to check, especially if both cheater and home wrecker remain discrete about it. One thing's for sure: rarely does an item involving an abuse victim prosper.

    But you're at a way better place in your life now, so past trauma can just walk itself to the dumpster. :)

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